Today hasn't really been too bad so far. I had one little rough patch this morning when Jen texted me to let me know she made it to California okay. I really thought I was going to cry just because I'm so bitter that I have to be alone, the one thing my parents promised would never happen, during this special holiday. I was trying to talk to my mom about it this evening and telling her how hard it was to not only be alone for Christmas and my birthday (being the same day and all) but to know that people actually forget about me. Only my grandparents sent a card, and its not about sending anything. Its about remembering. You know what she said? "Its part of being an adult. You get forgotten. Get over it." What?! So suddenly its not okay for me to be sad about being alone on a holiday that is all about being with your family? My mom is impossible sometimes, I don't understand her.

I braved the crowds today and did a little shopping with my bonus for me. I didn't find exactly what I wanted but its was better than nothing at all. Other wise it was very uneventful today. I slept for about an hour around 1pm after being up at 5am to take Jen to the airport and then the mail lady woke me up ringing the bell. And I've been awake since, just half ass cleaning. I expect tomorrow to be much the same ;o)