in the days still left

i feel like i can't really post every thing that i would want to on OD anymore. i feel like people are just done hearing me whine about the same things over and over but right now its all i can think about.

i'm totally happy here in tulsa, but some of the choices i've made have left me wanting to just go home. i feel exhausted all the time and i feel like between working almost 60 hours a week and all the house work there is to do there is no time for me to be me anymore.

i don't have a car anymore so if i want to do something i have to rely on jen all the time and while its great that she's been so amazing about it, its been really hard on me individually. i can't just go anywhere which means that i can't ever really be alone. i get no peace and quiet. i've even fallen dreadfully behind on Nanowrimo, which had never happened before.

i guess i just feel like i don't know what to do right now. i feel like i've lost sight of alot of things that are pretty important to me and i'm not sure what i need to do from here.